Decisions, Decisions

This is going to sound like a very obvious statement, but as life progresses, decisions get harder. Duh, right? Well recently, my decisions have become very difficult, and I feel like if they stay at the pace they are going right now, my decisions will kill me before I'm 20.

Now to clear this up, the aren't the "classic" teenage decisions. I'm not doing drugs or drinking and driving (or even drinking for that matter). My decisions are the ones people forget to warn you about and don't have an answer everyone likes to hear, and I'm a little stressed out about them.

First, I'm starting college early. That's not a difficult decision for me to make. I'm not advancing my education at my high school anymore, so whats the point? Also, I don't have any real ties to the school for I will still be seeing my friends around. Decision made.

Of course other decisions that I'm made because of that or that were made because of it are really stressing me out, and no one seems to be trying to make these decisions any easier for me. One of the bigs ones right now is the One-Act Competition play. Last year our cast took the play "Freak"to the State Festival Stage. I was a large part of that play and have always enjoyed acting under the director and with my fellow thespians. But this year because of my class schedule, I will not be considered for a part in the play cause I won't be able to make it to 2 of the 5 practices each week. At first, this bothered me. So I slept on it and woke up with another look at it-it will give me the opportunity to have more time at the college and work, plus I'll be ending my acting career at Bagley with a trip to State.

I was contented, if not extremely happy with this outcome. So today I went to school head held high knowing it wouldn't bother me. Well, like any good father would do, my dad got angry about it, saying that the cast "needs me" because I was there talent. Blah, blah. Some of the cast was angry saying that they wanted me to do it. I was conflicted. Me against the school. I hated it.

But now I'm coming to terms with it. Here's what I have to say:

I'm done with high school. All it's doing is trying to keep me down when all I need to do is fly-let me go. I don't need anything from you anymore. Good Riddance.