Recently, I've felt that I am losing touch with the people I have grown up with. We're at the stage where everyone is really figuring out where we belong in this world and going our separate ways. Now I am lucky enough that the way I am headed has been paved so well for me. God truly is looking out for me and answering my prayers. Through this change, I have lost a lot of good friends, and I can tell. There are some people that I don't have in classes anymore so we just happen to exchange a glance and a friendly greeting in the hallway. There are some that I talk about hanging out with more often all the time, but we never seem to actually take the initiative to take time for each other. There are also the ones that don't even acknowledge my existence anymore (not like that friendship was much of a loss.) But there are also those people that through these changes have come even closer to me and I get to see more often and do things with. I'm liking having those two or three girls that I can talk to or that can talk to me when we need each other and I hope and pray everyday that our relationships will withstand the struggles of our lives and we will be able to be as close as we are today.
I'm posting this today because I have a friend that has been in quite the love triangle recently. I take pride in my ability to listen to others problems and hope that people recognize me as a person they can confide in with things that are distressing them. I also take pride in my ability to try and give responsible and respectable feedback and solutions to problems. But for some reason, this one even stumped me. I don't know why, I have never been so internally conflicted by someone else's problem, but I think that this one also had a personal effect on me because of how close our friendship is. All I guess I can do is pray that she makes the right decision and that everything turns out in the end.
At the same time, it makes me wonder how much i really know about things. Do I just ramble on about problems, or do I try and find the best and simplest solutions to things. I don't know. I feel like I have made some good personal choices in life (I've made some really horrible ones too, but I learned from them). I don't know. I guess I'm just going through that stage in life where I'm full of questions about life and about myself. But one thing I do know is that I wouldn't be where I am today without my friends.
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